Finally I finished

I still wanna say something........I am so excited because I pass EAP.......I cannot believe it. I spent nearly 2 years to study English........I failed once, and I blamed myself many times.......However, I passed!!!!!!!!!!!! Only My mother and bf know how hard I tried and suffered........Many people quit this program, but I insist on studying. I don't know why.......Today I know that is the result of happiness........
My dear teachers.....Murray and Scott....Keep in touch........ I will never forget you who had helped me to prove English...... Thank you very much.

Finally...........

Next week FINAL EXAMS are coming........OH MY GOD. When I finished my last term paper, I still cannot relax myself.......I cannot close my eyes......555555......crying...... Murray said listening exam is very difficult.....and he tries to make it more difficult...... I wanna cry........The day is coming....ARE U ready? I still need to prepare a perfect presentation, and decided when I am going to Ottawa for one month. The most important thing is pass........
I really feel my english level is going up day after day. I can express my words and translate what I want to say. It is a big improvement for me. Let's cheers......
Tomorrow our dear teacher is back!!!!!!!!!!!Welcome!!!!!!!!We miss him for a whole week........miss his face, voice, and walking style........hoho~~ I hope that we will have gifts....
I will keep doing my blog.......Let's finish it.!!!

A song can wake me up

Her voice is like from the sky.......

Do you know that I'm OK? Are there things you wanna say? Thinking of you night and day Hopping you'll come back and stay I remember when you told me I'll be all right Don't worry... *I try and try to understand... Is all this just a sad good bye? Thinking of you night and day... No matter if you'll come and stay I remember when you told me I'll be all right Just hold me... I don't wanna close my eyes tonight Missing you make me cry Your love will give me strengths to carry on You'll always be my heart and mind So I don't wanna close my eyes tonight I know it's just a miss match in time... Why...oh ...why Miss match in time* x2

It is a mirror which shows myself. that is hurt.

One more week to go!!!

Final exams are coming quickly. I am really scared......and anxious......Everyone is worried about their marks........So do I. I just try my best to finish my assignments......so Let's work hard!
Today, I have some news about my old friends who meet many problems now. I just suddenly understand everyone is the same. No one is better than others. When a person have something, at the same time, he or she loses something. People have to face hardness. After those difficulties, they will meet other huge problems. That is called the society and life. I am upset about the long distance,but I am also glad to be his gf. Someone always said that you would not happy when you have already had something. Even though my little wish does not come true, I am still waiting for my little happiness. I know that I will have it and I promise that if I have it, I do not except anymore. People are changing faster than I image. I do not know what I am writing about......I hate noodles...I really hate noodles.....however, i still have it everyday. To be a good man is not very hard, right? I like April, and I hate March....... I.......wanna cry......who can pass me some sugar.........

1 mins .........

"LOOK AT THE MONkEY, lOOK AT THE MONKEY!!!!"

He is a so cute monkey who is our dear Murray~(I know he will not see this page.) Today, everything goes very well. Finally, I did 1 min speech to everyone. When the monkey looked at me, I knew what his eyes contact mean. In fact, it is not a speech. I made everyone laugh. Because I said many weird things........ I said that we can watch tv to practice listening and read newspapers..... Then, the monkey's face looked like this pictures' expression and and said:"read newspapers can prove listening???" I suddenly changed topic. I said maybe we can take notes in front of Tv under the sub-title.. The monkey asked people if looking the subtitle is a good way. Everyone refused my ideas. hahahha+lolololo=everyone is happy and laughing......Many people gave me other good ideas. Now I just want to laugh.......... because........ it is so funny........ when I recall the situation, I do want to recall the monkey's face........He must think what the hell...........what is going on..........

Anyway, today is a big day and is an important day....... I have a big wish...... and I pray for a whole night ........God please bless.......please......i want to see my happiness come soon.......

One hour later, I will go to work as before. Perhaps I will meet my old friends........ still admire and be jealous...... I know that is terrible.......... but I am TERRIBLE~with a little bit stupid.
lOOK AT THE MONKEY, lOOK AT THE MONKEY~~~~

nightmare

Today, I had have a nightmare before I went to this class. I dreamed that I missed my writing mid-term exam because I woke up late. I booked a taxi and prepared to go to school. However, the taxi was not outside after ten mins..... I really counted how many marks I would lose if I miss this exam. Then, I met a group of bad people who wanted to give me a ride. However, they sold me to another place....... I really scared.......and tried to get off this car.......but I couldn't......
When I woke up quickly, I was glad that I did not miss the exam, and mid term has already passed for a long time......HOHOHOHO.......see, Helen is still alive and happy~~~
Even though the dream is not real, I still late for this class......because I woke up late. I do think that there are some relationships bewteen dreams and reality for me. The reason is sometimes my dreams happen in the reality.........that is scared........
Yesterday, I read some article about science because Murray said today might has quizs. I know many sicentists spent their whole life to discover new things and explain the earth such as Newton and Einstein....... What was their motivation? Why did they do this?..... because they desire to learn more???.......... who can answer me.........:) smile~~~~

~~Renew~~

Today is a sunny day. Even though I woke up at 3 p.m, I still enjoy the sunshine on the bed. I think that spring is coming soon. I am waiting for my spring which is my favourt season. This week I promised Murray to go to Writing centre, so I decided to go on next Tuesday. Sometimes just sometimes I am very lazy, and I feel I dislike everything......except food.......lol. I sticked our time schedule on the wall. I know that this is one more month to go. I feel very very excited because I will start a credit course!!!! I am waiting for that day for a long long long time. I have imaged that I will be very enjoy studying at that time. Also, I have a big wish.........I hope that God will fulfill my dream........only one time. This year, I won't go back to China though I really miss them. I want to spend more time to study and make everything goes very well......
After EAP program, our teachers will meet new students and we will meet new teachers. In China, we say that teachers like the candle burns out themselves as well as give lights to others.

don't complain anymore

I typed many words and deleted them again and again. I don't know what I want to talk about. no topic is a topic......no reason is a reason. no matter what I want to say, the reality can not be changed. I want to say the sky is gray, but it is still blue. Nobody cares, so I care. No more love, so I love. It is not a big deal. I have read too many love stories. Girls cry for boys. HOWEVER, I still ENJOY this sentence.
A girl said:"I love you." A boy said:"through the salt." A LONG TIME AGO, WHEN I SAW THIS SENTENCE AT THE FIRST TIME, I CRIED WITH NO REASONS. I AM A SO SENSITIVE PERSON. A LITTLE THING CAN BREAK MY HEART AND CHANGE MY MIND. I TRY TO BE MORE BRAVE, BUT SOMETIMES I JUST CHALLENGE MY LIMIT AGAIN AND AGAIN. I KNOW THAT THERE HAS NEVER HAD A LIMIT........
My friends always like to ask my recent life. How to answer them is becoming a big question........i start to doubt their motivations.
I will still envy, wish, hope, admire........Be a stupid girl forever.

My sweet reading week!!!

During this reading week, I went to Ottawa to visit my dear boyfriend. When I saw the real person at that second, my heart was jumpping very fast. A lot of happiness with a little bit sadness. Both of us knew that we only have nine days to enjoy our short trip. He took me to go around and eat many different Chinese food because he knew that I have never cooked delicious food for myself in Calgary. We also worked on my term paper together and searched a lot of information in the library of Carleton University. I saw many old friends who were my old classmates in the high school.
I found that Ottawa is a very nice city. The weather is colder than Calgary, and there is a lot of snow!!! I think that I should go there possibly on summer.... Some people speak French and some people speak English. Most of the time, I speak Chinese.....lol.
Okay, it is the time to talk about my mid-term!!!!!! I did bad on listening exam. I thought that I tried my best to listen, but I still missed many details for the last part....... I always think about there is some problems with my ears. Murray told me that life is not clear...... I really wish I could listen to the last one clearly........
Oh my god...........I am not a smart girl, so I have to spend more time to study for myself.

My big plan for next week!~~~

As everyone knows, mid-term is coming!!!!It comes so fast that I am not get ready. I am sared but I am also excited. First, I am worried about my Writing, Reading, and Listening!!!!I need to prepare a lots on the weekend, so I decide to fight with myself!!I have to passssssss. However,the good news is I am going to Ottawa to visit my dear BF after exams. Even though it is only around 9 days, I would like to spend my money on this ticket. I really miss him a lots......So does him~~~HOHO~~~ This year I only wish he can transfer to U of C successfully. Both of us need to try very very hard, but we believe a same dream. At the same time,I will not/ cannot/ must not/ forget my important term paper.( I believe our teacher is very happy now).
Next week we have some important assignment for Murry......Be honest, I have not started it yet. I have to search sth after this blog........Time is not enough......
Hurry, hurry, Helen. RUN RUN RUN.....

Fever

I got a fever yesterday.....so sad....I hope that I will get better tmr.Next week, Chinese New Year is going to come. I heard about some bad news which is about snow disaster. The snow, the heaviest in decades in many places, has been falling in east, central and south China for more than two weeks. It has caused deaths, accidents, transport problems and livestock and crop destruction. Many people cannot go home during this time, so they have to wait in the train station. Chinese minister WEN JIA BAO visited them and promised that the goverment would do their best to let them go home as soon as possible. When I saw their face, I really can understand their feeling..... I hope this disaster can be disappeared as soon as possible.
Chinese New Year is a traditional and formal festival in China. Every family members have to eat dumplings together during the night. There is also a big TV show in CCTV1which has many famous super stars. I enjoy watching it every year. However, I cannot go home with my dear family..... I really miss my parents and my grandfather. :). However, I will phone them on time.
Happy NEW YEAR to everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

..someone.so.Beautiful.....

I had worked five hours yesterday before I went home, so I just felt too tired...... When I took off the C-train at night, I saw my bus was passing away in front of me and many scared people on the street at night. I decided to go home on foot.... I met a dranker and did not answer what he said to me. It is an lonely night only the moon and stars with me...... Making a little bit money still can let me feel happy.......I don't have any request. I only have a dream which is one of my biggest wishes.........I hate shopping alone, hate having dinner alone, hate every night.......I wanna use a long sentence to describe my situation now, but I cannot. Things can not be changed by myself. something so beautiful, Flowing down like a waterfall.
Today, I met an very old man who talked with me on the Ctrain station. I thought he was a good man at the first time, but I felt very scared now........ We talked a lots and he wanted to teach my English at his home........and asked my cell phone numbers and e-mails.........I was so stupid because I gave him....... I did not know him. Why did I give him??????? I don't know..... He sat very close to me in the C-train, and I felt very uncomfortable.........then, I took off the Train.
So scared those days.......... I should be careful and take care!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Snowing outside

Which seasons do u like the best? In fact, I like spring, summer, fall, and winter because I really enjoy different smell. The smell can record a lot of memory. When I closed my eyes, I used to image different stories which happened a long time ago. Spring can give people energy and also I like many colorful flowers. In summer I love wearing skirt and eating ice cream. In fall my birthday comes soon, and my parents must buy many things for their dear daughter! Winter is my precious time with my boyfriend because we met each other on the airplane to Canada in the winter five years ago. That is why I like all the seasons very much.
Now it is winter time and it is snowing outside. I can see many big snowflakes falling down the ground. I always think about if things have life. Sometimes or all the time I am stupid. There is one more month for the Spring Festival. I will miss a big CCTV show again and my family members....... Give them my best wishes. Life is still continuing. It worths to fight.

What is the best way to learn a foreign language?

I think the best way to learn a foreign language is in a class and outside of class. In the class, teachers can teach students a lot of knowledge which they can't get at home. For example, in the English class students can study how to say and spell words. At the same time, students also can discuss with their classmates about their questions. It is fun to study something with friends. Learning a second language is also need time to absorb, so students still have to practice at home. When they read and write a lots, they will become more and more familiar with English.
If people only study at school, they cannot remember all the stuff. If people only study at home, they cannot get enough knowledge either. By the way, I think a person who always stays at home for studying seems like machines. People need to spend time on life such as by bus and go outside. I remember a sentence in a movie. Life is hard to fight, but it worths to fight.
Learning a second language is hard for me. However, everyone needs to have faith of success. I advise this way to study English just as our situation. We spend eight hours to study English, right?